Stella Bella: Where are you?

Stella is lost. The last time I saw her was Saturday afternoon, strolling through the lawn dressed for fall in leaves of golden orange. Breakfast had not stayed well in her tummy that morning. At this time of year, she loves to chew on catmint and grass. Not a fan of cold and wet under her feet, she waits until the sun has warmed the air before going out for a sojourn. Where is she? We’ve been together five years, enjoying our cottage and yard near the river. By sunset, she should have been home mooching for something more. Stella struggles with the change of season, so I was considering different quality cat foods. But, what about the birds, mice and frogs she has chomped on. How can she get sick on cat food, yet ingest wildlife? Princess Stella makes herself cozy on the top of pillows. She meets me when I pull in the driveway at the end of the workday. Her meow still sounds like a tiny kitten. Last week, she ran through the pet door in a panic just before the wild turkey strolled out of the woods. Stella knows when it’s wise to hide. So, what happened? Where is Stella?

Stellina is her official name, Italian for little star. On her neck, she has a diamond shaped patch of white. There’s also a spot on her back paw, as if she stepped in cream and hadn’t quite licked it off yet. Otherwise, she is a soft warm shade of gray fur. Her nose and beanie toes are gray. She came to my home on a freezing cold day in January from a household with one too many cats. Stella apparently was irksome to the others. At the time, I already had a house cat. Tesoro was a three-year-old shelter cat and we’d been together for about a year. Unfortunately, Tesoro hadn’t socialized well to humans and preferred to keep me at a distance. He hadn’t once meowed, refused to play chase the string and couldn’t be touched. Exasperated at his standoffish behavior, his foster mom suggested a soft squashy cube shaped cat cushion saying he loved to snuggle in there. He did, but he also let me reach in and scratch his ears finally. I thought, maybe he needs a companion.

The blending of the two cats was a challenge for a few months. I recall having to separate them at night due to territory hassles under the bed. Stella stayed in my bedroom overnight for a chance to rest and be safe. They didn’t actually fight each other but neither did they make friends. The shift to acceptance happened and Stella became our beloved queen. Physically, Stella has a chunky little shape with a short tail. Her shoulders are heavy but her face is small and dainty. In April of the first year, I encouraged her to explore the back yard. On mild weekend afternoons, she was invited to explore the yard while I did a garden chore. At first, she stayed close to the house and learned to use the pet door. Our yard is long, bordered by mature trees leading down to the railroad tracks. Beyond the tracks is the Quaboag River. A fifteen-minute walk leads down narrow streets with tidy homes into the downtown. It becomes rural the farther one travels out of town. She never strayed far, preferring to discover the lawn and gardens. At first, an hour was enough playtime but gradually, she would stay out for an entire afternoon. Meanwhile, Tesoro was daunted at the thought of going into the cellar. The only way to reach the pet door into the backyard was through the walk out basement. He would hover on the top steps meowing for Stella but too scared to follow her.

Stella is an adapter. Her instincts show her catitude to be spot on. She settled in with us and we found a pattern to our lives. Every evening, the expectation was she came in around suppertime and stayed in all night. I was wary of the many night creatures that might find her a tasty meal. And, she was a fair weather. So, Tesoro and Stella snuggled together on the window perch basking in winter sunlight. They cuddled on the sofa taking long cat snoozes. Stella was easy to pick up and play with. Tesoro watched us intently and came out of himself enough to play chase the string from time to time. A year went by before Tesoro found the nerve to walk outdoors. I was surprised to see him one Sunday come into the backyard and dash into the basement. The day was so mild, all the doors were open to welcome in the warm breezes. He found his courage and started to step outside his comfort zone. Stella was the motivation. He adored her and the separation pushed him to follow.

Years rolled by with us as a little family. Stella insisted on sitting in my lap, sleeping on me each night and being affectionate in every way. She provided mouse meals routinely. Occasionally, especially in fall, the wild ancestor genes in her psyche took over and she would not come in for the night. There was the safety of the sun porch but the sliding glass entry to the basement proper had to be locked because of the cold. I will not run a furnace with a door open. I would find her the next day, huddled up next to the stonewall, warming herself by the rising sun.

She is lost. It’s a long week know since she vanished. I did check our street looking for her crushed body. I checked the yard looking for remains. Where did she go? No, the local vet hadn’t received an injured cat that week. No, the animal control officer didn’t either. How strange to walk in the house and not find her there. Tesoro has always been first in line for dinner and still is. If Stella has crossed the rainbow bridge, I wish a sign would be shared to let me know that’s her fate. The nothingness is hard. She left a knowing of how complex and lively one little animal can be. She helped Tesoro find his courage to accept the human and enjoy slouching on Mom in the evenings. The weekend chore of house cleaning will show the little things left behind by Stella. The vacuum will take away the gray fur from the carpet or table. How she is missed. Missing Stella.

Poncho ~ I’m Your Cat

This beautiful fluffy gray cat is Poncho.  He truly had nine lives with wide green eyes focused on the best outcome. Blessed with a relaxed accepting nature, Poncho made himself at home everywhere he went. This article is a celebration of his presence before he slips from memory. Poncho passed over the rainbow bridge about nine years ago. He came to me in the fall of 2009 during a time of change. Originally, he was a part of my parent’s household. He appeared one day in their backyard hanging around the shed for shelter and mouse hunting. He was not feral but considered a nuisance. Eventually, he moved into the home. Several years later, he came to live with me when my parent’s health took a bad turn. At the time, I lived in an apartment with a cat named Gigi. She was an aloof tortoiseshell I’d adopted a few years before. We were bonded and happy together. Poncho’s meowing presence wasn’t welcome just then.

Poncho lived with my parents for several happy years. Once settled in their home, he became a lap cat that loved to be the center of attention. The backyard, full of garden plots gone wild, gave him a fun place to roam and keep up his cat skills. My mother was not much of a pet lover but Poncho liked her a lot. It was obvious by the way he would walk confidently into the room, give her a look, leap onto her lap and gaze at her eyes. A tilted up nose meant he was expecting a cat kiss. When the gesture was returned, he’d get the purr going.

The day she moved out of the family home and into a cottage, my brother brought along his husky dog providing a peculiar brand of “help”. He did a great job of scaring the cat outside creating a concern about possible abandonment. When the moving van left and everything quieted, I checked around and found Poncho behind the house gazing out into an overgrown side yard. Easygoing as always, he was okay with being picked up and crated for his journey. It didn’t take long for him to settle in to the cottage and enjoy a new yard to explore. Unfortunately, he lost his freedom due to his habit of setting chipmunks free in the cottage. My mothers’ limited mobility made it hard to rescue the critters from under baseboard heaters. Poor Poncho, he cried and carried on with the loss of his outdoor sojourn.

Sometime later, my mother needed a lengthy rehab stay leaving Poncho alone in the cottage. A cat lover and being the nearest person to assist, it became a daily chore, stopping in after work to feed him and clean his litter box. Poncho hated being alone. He needed people around to thrive. During this time frame, I updated his vaccinations as they had lapsed. The veterinary exam revealed inflamed gums and broken teeth. A decision was made to go ahead with surgery to restore his dental health. In retrospect, I could have had him euthanized but that wasn’t a thought. But, the after surgery care meant he shouldn’t be left alone. So, when I temporarily moved him to my apartment, he encountered a cantankerous tortoiseshell who wanted nothing to do with him. Here was this big sick cat suddenly in a hostile place. Gigi retreated to a neighbor’s apartment quite a bit; it wasn’t working out. One morning, they were on opposite sides of a door. Both reached around the opened door clawed me. The mood was treacherous so I had to find Poncho a foster home for a while. He landed in a home with a young girl who gave him the adoration he loved. They had a routine of daily play and brushing his thick coat every afternoon. Poncho did return to the cottage after a few weeks.

Sometime that spring, a calico came to live with me making us a two-cat family. Sweetie had some eccentric tendencies, which is common for these colorful cats. At first, I thought she was a drop off roaming around the apartment complex. Her owner preferred that she live outdoors except when a son had visitation rights every so often. Given that we were in a rural setting with fox and coyote commonly nearby, I offered to take her in. It was none of my business but Sweetie was happy to take me up on the invitation.

Gigi wasn’t too happy about another cat in the household. However, she acclimated and made the best of it. Things settled down for a few months, until an opportunity appeared for me to become a first time homebuyer. The search was on for a home. A few days before signing serious documents, I struggled with a sick headache. The stress was getting to me so much I needed medical care to relieve a three-day migraine. Of course, more drama was added when my mother’s health weakened. Poncho was about to lose his home. Why did I take him instead of dropping him at a shelter? Maybe it was the path of least resistance to pack him up too. Late October, I closed the door on my apartment and headed towards home, not with two cats but three.

On move in day, I remember putting crated cats in the basement. Once all the furniture was moved in, they were freed to check out the new place. The basement has a walk out sliding glass door to a sun porch leading into a sunny backyard. The storm door had a large glass panel allowing cats to easily look out and look in. I had quite a shock in the early days seeing two young black and grey cats peering in the window. I had been feeding two young feral cats near my apartment complex that were the exact same size and color. How could they be here? I was miles away. The curious young cats had an uncanny resemblance to the others. How strange that was!

The early days are a bit of a blur now but I recall Poncho figuring out that despite his large size, he was at the bottom of the mealtime totem pole. A spot in the kitchen was created for all three to eat separately. Patiently he would wait for his serving. He never bullied the calico’s for more, but if they left food behind, he was first to mooch the scraps.

The cats had the freedom to roam outside during daylight hours. It was a habit at the apartment and continued in the new place. Somehow, he also figured out where the property boundaries were. Maple trees mark the natural border but there are large gaps of open land. A few neighborhood cats had a habit of passing through our yard daily. Yet, he tended to guard only our space and stop just at the border. Poncho would puff himself up and scare them out with fierce growls and snarls. There was never a rolling around the grass confrontation, only loud hissing.

A few of his adventures stand out in my memory like the time he charged a big dog. The backyard is long and narrow. On sunny Sunday afternoons, the cats often joined in on whatever chore was happening. I was at the far end of the yard raking leaves when a yellow lab ambled in. The walk out basement door was wide open. The cats were somewhere behind me and that left a long run to safety. All of a sudden, a hissing Poncho jumped at the dog, not once but twice. He hit the dog as hard as he could. For a panicked moment, I had a vision of the dog turning on Poncho and biting him in two. The dog sort of looked at the cat and gently walked in a different direction. When I realized the danger was over, I ran toward Poncho praising his courage. Unfortunately, Poncho gave a pathetic meow in response. The poor soul couldn’t put any weight on his front paw because he sprained it attacking the dog. Well, he received the royal treatment for a while. After a few days, his health improved and he was strolling around as always.

Sometimes Poncho behaved as a dog would rather than a cat. He could look fierce when his hair stood out. I fell more in love with Poncho the day he stared down a repairman. Contractors hired for services all have the nickname big boots. They clunk around making a lot of noise, stepping on things and generally taking up too much space. A new roof was put on the house in 2011 and I was not too happy when a leak appeared in one area. I had just signed the last check but had yet to mail it in. When the roofer came to the house, Poncho happened to be on the front steps and did a great imitation of a lion, adding a growl to his voice. His stance was: I Dare You to Come Closer! I had to intervene but I wonder if he picked up by telepathy that I was not happy to see this guy. This behavior did explain some mean comments from previous workmen. I thought it was bad attitudes from them but perhaps Poncho let them have it.

Poncho was skillful at reading my emotions. I needed him more than ever when the rare occurrence of a tornado came too close to our town.  June 1, 2011, the weather report mentioned possible thunderstorms in the afternoon. It had been sticky hot for several days. At the time, my work commute was about fifteen minutes door to door. My goal that afternoon was to stop for a gas fill up. But, a fast moving squall went from gentle drops when I left the office to horizontal rain very quickly. I took the path of least resistance and went home instead. Gigi, the older tortoiseshell, was at the bottom of the basement stairs for some reason. She was huddled in a little loaf. Sweetie was sleeping upstairs on the bed. Poncho greeted me in the normal way. About an hour later, I turned on the weather alert radio to find out why the sky looked so strange. The clouds had the texture and color of a dark haired poodle. They sat low on the horizon, almost cauliflower in shape. What a shocker it was when the automated voice kept repeating a tornado warning. The message relayed: Tornado on the ground in Wilbraham, Palmer, Monson, Brimfield, Sturbridge. These towns are right over the hillside about four miles south! I panicked a bit and Poncho did too. I remember going in circles until I went into the cellar. Poncho meowed and meowed in an agitated way. Gigi, dear Gigi had it figured out already! Get low Mom! The next day at the office, everyone had dark circles under their eyes. We were scared and too many people witnessed the tremendous destruction.  The people of Monson saw 75 houses destroyed. Poncho stayed close and watched me carefully the whole time. Sweetie was oblivious and Gigi spent the night in the basement. She was smarter then all of us.

Poncho’s problem with gum disease returned in December 2013. He had been doing so well living with us. He loved his yard and sunny afternoons in the garden. When I parked the car at the end of the day, he trotted out to meet me with a big meow. The three cats never really liked each other, but learned tolerance. An awful decision was made to end his life at 14 years old. The cost for dental care this time was too high for me to take on. We had four years together. I was able to be with him at the end and still miss his presence. I remember empty days after he was dead. His spirit was so lively. He slept on my legs every night, curled up on my lap every day. I don’t think the other cats felt that way. But, to me, he became a friend and defender. Poncho found a way to make himself comfortable at my house. All that’s left of him know are memories.

 

A calico cat story

The reputation of calico’s was revealed during a vet visit. “Oh no,” the animal tech whispered as she put the thick gloves on, “one of those.” Until then, I wondered why this young cat seemed so sassy. So, her grumpiness was a trait and something to be wary of. Sweetie Pi had an independently confirmed case of “cat-titude”. 

This calico cat came into my life sometime in the spring of 2007. Her coat of white, black and burnt sienna caught the eye in daylight or night. The nickname, “Clementine” came to mind one day as I watched her meander around the laundry room door. Why is she a wanderer, I wondered? Who is her owner?

At that time, I had a house cat named Gigi, a ten-year-old tortoiseshell brought home in 2005 from a local shelter. She’d lost her longtime owner to cancer and been at the shelter for six months. The attendant had to reach under the bed to retrieve her the day I stopped in to just take a look at this kitty. As I held her, she promptly took a bite on my hand. Still, she had something and I was persuaded to take her home that same day. Over the next two years, we’d developed a strong bond of friendship. Ever the believer in letting an animal follow it’s instincts. I encouraged her to roam out onto our 2nd floor balcony to enjoy the outdoors. The scene below revealed a small woodland with water trickling over stones. So many birds lived in the copse, visiting our feeder routinely for seeds and nuts. One evening, I startled a flying squirrel into stillness as he was hanging on the feeder munching on peanuts. Gigi eventually became quite comfortable roaming down the stairs and exploring the quiet woods. Many pleasant moments passed with her sipping stream water and watching skeeter bugs. 

Into this idyll, a young calico appeared routinely wandering around. It was puzzling to figure out who the owner was. Given the woodland setting and routine howling from coyotes in the night, it was not wise to leave a house cat out all day and night. The day I saw her leap and catch a bird in flight, I decided she needed a roof over her head.  I started to provide food and attention, inviting her to come inside. That spring had been damp with too much rain. Before another soaker could begin, I remember inviting her in and didn’t she curl up in a basket that was much too small for her and doze off for hours. 

Gigi tolerated Sweetie. She didn’t feel at all sympathetic to a vagabond cat. But, given by now it was late summer, Sweetie had to move indoors somewhere, else she’d grow wild or worse, lose her life to a predator. I had sorted out who the owner was and asked them if I could take her in. Apparently, she was adopted from a local shelter for the amusement of the man’s son when he had visitation rights. Which meant she was fed and noticed about every other week, otherwise, she was booted outside. When a moving van arrived one day, the owner reluctantly let me take her. He was relocating to the city of Springfield and did seem to genuinely want her to join them. But, Sweetie made her own choice when she ran out the door and couldn’t be found. 

Glad to have her, she moved in without doubt. A visit to the vet gave her age to be about 1 ½ years old. An animal communicator relayed a memory of being taken by a man to a shelter. He left her there and she was still waiting for him to return. She’d had about five homes by the time I arrived on the scene. She was permitted to roam outside, but when the sun set and supper was served, indoors she must stay. 

I remember how she took to sleeping on a futon chair and hissed at me when I would approach her. Ticks seemed to love her and were often embedded in her face and neck. To keep her still, I had to sort of kneel over her and trap here between my legs to twist the bugs out. Somehow she earned the nickname Peanut. Why? I don’t recall. It wasn’t until the veterinary visit when the techs whispered about the calico attitude that I realized she was a bit anxious without reason. I thought it might be her transient early life. She easily showed whatever emotional state she was in and hissy and pissy was one of them. Gigi, being a tortoiseshell, is a calico, however, she displayed a cool standoffishness most of the time. Apparently, her expression was considered a bit mean by some folks. The attitude was more aloof. Gigi meowed and cooed a bit. Sweetie yelled and screamed a lot. Sometimes neighbors could be heard to tsk at the sound of her meow. 

We got along. Gigi would rarely sleep on the bed with me. Sweetie perfected the art of lying on my hip all night long. If I turned over slowly, she would adjust her place and resettle in. 

It was when I bought my house that life improved for us all. No more noisy neighbors. But, the move coincided with my mother’s health deteriorating to the point she could no longer keep her housecat. Suddenly, I inherited a large gray male tabby cat who needed quite a lot of attention. We managed, I remember moving day required three cat carriers. I left them in the basement in the carriers while the furniture was moved in. Once all was settled, they were allowed out to start roaming around. 

Sweetie enjoyed the garden. All the cats learned to use the pet door in the walk out basement. They had a big yard to explore, and trees to sharpen their claws on. We got along and enjoyed our little home. Eventually, Poncho died and a few years later, I lost Gigi at 19 years old. Sweetie had what she really wanted, Mom and the house to herself. I remember thinking we could grow old together, she was about nine and would be my last house cat. We had a few years together. It was early January 2017 when I came home to find she had died. She was lying quietly on her favorite chair but did not react when I came in. Something felt wrong. I thought I felt a heartbeat. But, she was big and limp. I did take her to the vet’s and had to take in the awful news. How could she be gone? The vet said it could have been an aneurism or heart attack. She was gone. 

Soon will be the fourth anniversary of her crossing the rainbow bridge. What an impression she has left. How much she is still missed today. Since then, two different house cats have come along and we live happily together. Sweetie would have hated them and put up such a snit. I remember feeding a stray cat on the doorsteps and seeing her make such an ugly face. How is it a cat with such a beautiful coat could be almost hysterical at times over the smallest discomfort? 

SO, be warned, if you’ve taken in a calico kitten or cat, it’s not you. They are born with cattitude and are super proud of it! 

RIP Sweetie Pi